Well, I DID say I would share frustrations as well as what I am doing, right or wrong. I haven't been doing much of anything except having a pity party. I am reevaluating my plan, my life, and where it all fits in.
I am currently dealing with being stressed out about what is NOT happening in my life. All the things I have started and stopped before they were done, my job and businesses that I have "to dos" piling up, and where I am in regards to my body (it's getting bigger and floppier!) All of this is piling up to a paralysis. My workouts become yet ANOTHER thing that I was SUPPOSED to do but didn't... bingo, one more thing to beat myself up over. GRRRR ARRRRGH!! I am also nervous about my tendonitis on my foot. Seeing as how I don't have medical insurance, it becomes a handy excuse for not running. Maybe I am not ready for this. My heart's not in it right now. Granted, my heart's not into much of anything at the moment.
I KNOW that I can't just roll over and die, that's not really an option. I just need to get off my pity pot and do something about my life. AHHH!
Hmmm... Well, I am going to ride my bike tonight, it's a start... again. I have historically used food to cope with all these feelings of wretchedness, self-loathing, fear, avoidance, etc etc etc. I can shift my thinking to go for a bike ride, swim or jog or even a walk or yoga instead of eating. I CAN shift my thinking and my priorities. I HAVE the power. It is MY choice.
Okay, I feel better already. Not 100%, but it's a step in the right direction. We all need a little "Check-up, from the neck up" from time to time.
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GO RALYN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
YES YOU CAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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